I'm really very sorry.

I'm sorry for what I have done.
Even you can forgive me, but I can't even forgive myself.
I felt so guilty now.
At Yew Tee CC outside, me and Shazwan was kept crying..
This is my first time crying because of you.
My tears were freely rolling down my cheeks.
Because we scared to lose you.
Because we scared that you are taking us from granted.
Because we scared you can't be our side forever.
Even when you graduate, we still want to be together.
We will never be apart from each other.
When you can forget us, we will never forget you.
I'm the one who closest to you, our relationship is stronger.
I scared that when you get better relationship with others group of friends,
you will follow them and not follow me.
We are sisters alright, everything must do together.
When you are sad, I'm sad too.
When you happy, I'm happy too.
And remember our behaviour is similar, I realised it not long ago.
We have the same watches and bags,
this proof that our promises will never be broken.
We will not be apart from each other,
we will always stay together.
I will never take off my watch, no matter what happen.
No one else can seperate between us.
I willing to sacrifice everything to spent time with you,
to get our relationship even more stronger.
I will not want to lose you this friend,
cause you are the only one who are closest to me too.
Our secrets, we have shared to each other.
Me and Shazwan regretted what we have done.
Even you can forgive us, but I can't even forgive myself.
But if you cant forgive us,
I'm willing to do by not eating & sleeping till I collapse down,
until you totally forgive us.
As like you said "As we go on, we remember all the times we have together.
And as our lifes change, come whatever we still be FRIENDS FOREVER."
I'm happy when I saw that message you sent me,
but I really dun deserve this kind of friend like you.
Cause whatever the wrong things I have done, you can forgave me easily.
And the strange things is that whatever you have done the wrong things,
is uneasy for me to get angry over you.
I know you have this kind of feeling/thinking too.
What had happened in the afternoon,
God is setting us a test how the way we handle it.
Remember, we will never go on smoothly forever.
There will always something happen between us.
I'm really very sorry for what I have done,
but even it is a small thing, I'm really can't forgive myself.