Even though the day you left me, I still smile all the day.

Shaolin shoes (:

Time flies so fast. Sigh doesn't know what to say at here just doesn't want to let my blog rot. Let's talk about today. Went to Cineleisure to see my Toms shoes. Wow the shoes cost $98 ! LOL. The price seem so nice that my heart almost pump out of my body. Decided not to buy and went back to fourskin to buy it from there only cost of $29 only ! LOL. Cheap uh (: After that went to 313 @Somerset went to Uniqlo to look for my formal clothing because I have an interview on Monday as I need to be more office lady. Hehehe. Can't get what's in my mind can't decide what should I get so I seek for Ben help to help me in my matching of office clothing for me. Went to all sorts of shop can't get any clothes to fit on me. So I shall buy it tmr. (:

Tomorrow is my Holy day ! Going church ! =D

Those tears I sherd in the past as you can just walk out of my life, I hope ur r/s will be tougher and suffering as what I've gone thru because of you. You are just the same as other guy outside treating their girls like a toy, pick up as you need, throw aside as and when you want.
You just treating ur r/s as a joke.

Me with mac grilled shirt on :)

This fragrance turns me on ! :)

Wahaaaa ! Now is already May ! I believed there is a lots of May babies at this month ! I fall in May too :) Prepare present for me alright? Hahahaha ! *Joke joke*

Today wake up at 1 plus and met Rouping & Andric at lot 1 about 5.30pm. They were so lateeee ! :( After meeting them up we went to Lot 1 guardian first because Rouping wanna buy Vick inhaler for herself. After that went to buy my adult mrt card because my ITE ezlink card was expired -.- So damn suay and wasted my $12 and inside the card value have $7 wth. Eaten my $5 away ! :( After bought the card, we went to Heerens at town to eat subway eat fresh ! :D LOL. After finished eating, we went to Cineleisure window shopping. We went in to a shop that sell fragrance etc then I smell this fragrance is damn nice lah. LOL. Then I bought it straight, it cost me $20 but is damn worth it because is damn sweet lah. Hahahaha ! After that slacking at scape for awhile and they come to my house. Home sweet home :)

Player never quits (:

Is All Just A Dream.

Time for blogging once again peeps ! :)
Recently keep working now days because I wanna learn lots of money ! :D Last 2 days working at mac donald, i almost being terminated because I din turn up for work about 1 month. LOL ! So went back to work, talking with new crews and have lots of fun at work. During dinner break, I was eating Filet meal for free ! Tata ! My EMC for today. I knock off at 9pm, chit chatting with my china colleagues about his and her life. Ever since we last long chatting was on last 2 years, it have been long long time we din get to chat for so long already. Hahaha ! After our chit chatting conversation, I walking back home from my work place. Need to do some exercising ! Took about 35 mins to reach my home and reported to my PO. Started using computer for long, even I have nothing to do in my computer I can still blindly stare at it for more than a hours. LOL ! Human are weird isn't it? Hahaha.

Well, just to say my life it began to feel more healthy and better each day already after a badly hurt strikes on me. Maybe is my retribution? Or just a bad luck to met him after his broke up? Nah doesn't wanna care so much, life still must goes on without him. Even how hurt I am, barely breathe barely eat, I still must move on without him. Well, life is all I need to survive alone not to live for someone's living. What's for I'm still holding on when he already made his decision to leave me? Hahaha. I can tell you all, all is just a joke or games when being with him. I doesn't have to show how sad I am nor how depressed I am, I love the way I am. That's who i was (: I believe there is no true love nor honest relationship, is all just a game and that's how true my prediction was. Relationship is just a game, e matter of whether you win or lose. Goodbye peeps ! The game starts now ! :) You know what I mean.

I never hide.

This morning have a big fight over someone with my god sister Tinghui during midnight. Really sincerely apologize to her as I've made a big mistake. Quarreled for 3 hours and we crying over msn. LOL that's sound so cool isn't it? Hahaha. Yeah her birthday is coming soon this Tuesday ! :D Is gonna be so awesome man !

Yesterday me, Rouping, Andric, Ben, Kai Ting & Arena went to church together. We were late for church LOL. Some more we still met up early worx. Hahahaha ! Damn funny, took the wrong train and because this is the reason that's why we were late for service. Some more I'm wearing wedges sia, hard to walk damn fast as they already chiong like mad for service. LOL. Reached church and prepared to praise and worship the Lord, I'm being holy for temporary. Hahaha ! After church, me and Andric was like damn hungry lah. OMG. Then we went to Marina square to eat subway together with Rouping and Andric. After that we went to slack at Marina square outside mac donald. About 11 plus reached home and I'm like feeling so tired and dizzy because of the segar. Fcuk the segar sia :( My money fly away just like this.

Stop stalking me because whatever related to me doesn't concern about you anymore.
And I'm like never treat you being my bf before, I cried because why am I so stupid to meet you in the first place.

My sleepy eyes :(

Me & Hogan (: *wink*

Hogan & Rouping (:

Rouping & Me

I really should move on now. Is a stupid thinking to cling on to someone who doesn't love me anymore. I guess he changed his heart and his mind were so different from the beginning. Although i still longing for him to be back by my side, i think is just my thoughts. It was just a dream, from the beginning to the end. Never once is truthfully being loved by someone who i really loved so deeply. I'm just like a toy to him. How stupid can i be? Haha.
Life is like this, is either you kena played or you played people.
Maybe is all childish acts. Know how to give people the right advice but then you are repeating the same mistakes as the person. Why? Saying that you won't be like them, in the end you are. Haha. I guess you are contradicting yourself.

Skip everything, today went out with Rouping, Hogan & Kingston.
We went to CSC bukit batok play pool :D Wah Hogan & Kingston so pro sia. Well, I'm not up to the standard yet. LOL. One day we shall see again. *wink* After finished playing pool, both of the twins going for their own plans. While me and Rouping walking around at West Mall to search for jobs :) Going places for interview, so have to just wait for their calls. Hopefully is successful. Meeting Izen at Lot 1, because she wanna eat. Because of we at yew tee, thinking of bus fare very expensive so we went back to rouping's house to get her mum bicycle and cycle to Lot 1. Our journey to Lot 1 got so much jokes man ! Hahahaha ! I was the driver and i long time didn't practice my license to drive people with me. Hahaha damn funny. We almost Lang Ga into people, Rouping's pant was stuck at the seats. Fcuking funny! HAHAHA ! I laughed until my urine wanna come out sia. HAHAHA ! Reached Lot 1, met Izen and accompany her eat and talk cock together. About 9pm I left Lot 1 and went home. Still got time, I went down to car park and jogging alone. So many things in my head, making me so confused and pain.

Hello guys ! I'm back to blogging again.

Oh well things doesn't go well recently. He broke up with me on 11/4/11, reason is because he can't forget his ex and longing for her back by his side. Childish isn't it? From the start he promised me that he won't use me as a replacement, but then in the end it is still. I thought I couldn't get out of the darkness but then after all I couldn't still. He cheated on me, his loving act was freaking fake as I suspect that he have the second thoughts of his ex. I was staring at clouds and keep thinking whether i should put down everything I had. But I can't put everything down still because my love for him is getting deeply and deeply. I thought I can let him forget everything, in the end I failed every test. I felt that I'm a failure, I cried every night keep crying for improvement for our relationship asking for mercy from God. In the end is game over. Maybe God doesn't wanna let me hurt so much as I already hurt damn badly, I know God would give me a better man. Sigh. I told myself what is belong to me will get in hand, what isn't belong to me won't get in hand. I'm really damn heart breaking about this relationship among all that I've gone thru. He gave up in this relationship as his past kept haunting him, so as I loved him so much I will give up too I won't hang on by saying no I won't break with you. Haha. Everything to him that does not even appreciate my love for him. Maybe he won't even regret making his decision as he want a revenge for his next relationship. How suay how pathetic I can be. He is the only guy that making me hate him damn badly seriously. A jerk that shame his ass off.

Thanks guy for cheering me up :) I'm fine already. Hahaha. I already move on because he doesn't belong to me at all. No point hanging on, keep having the thoughts of him that won't be possible at all for now. I believe he will get his retribution soon i guess. Wait till the worst day it comes that i longing for that will happen to him. Byebye jerk ass.

Why my life so sucky? Does a relationship seem to be a curse for me? When i started to love a person whole heartedly in the end something hit it so freely. I doesn't know is getting into relationship so important? Oh well, forget the shit of everything. Crying isn't the way to solve problem. So what if i cry? Does the person feel me? Maybe nobody will knows how i feel and what i'm going thru. I pray for mercy and wisdom to fall upon me, only i myself knows how i feel and what i'm going thru. Well life is like this, can't let go of someone needed to rewind back to the past. I wish i can do that if i have a time machine for myself. Sigh, I'm no longer a kid but as a young adult still struggling in relationship. How useless and dumb can i be? I feeling so struggled, being thrown out, being so damn useless. Your sweet words can be touched for temporary but not for forever. I never could be the first in ur heart, I can be assure of that.

Our first outing ! With Tinghui & MayMay :D

We at Cotton On ! :)

Me & Tinghui sister !

Me & MayMay sister !

The three of us ! :D

Cute boh ? :D

The shorts I'm trying. LOL ! xD

I'm the photographer ! xD

Today went out with Tinghui & MayMay to IMM, because today is my last day of submitting my commission paper. Omg! Today is the most worst torturing day for me & maymay. LOL !
We waited for Tinghui about 2 and half hours at home, we were like Zi Lian-ing at home until we can really bored to death and were feeling so damn sleepy and hungry ~
About 3pm I met them at Lot 1 taxi stand, we cab down to IMM because we are running out of time seriously. After I have submitted my things to my boss, they decided not to go Far East anymore and continued shopping at IMM. Muahahaha ! Yessarr ~ We went to eat Ajisen ! LOL.
I ate my food half way and throw aside as I'm damn freaking full. After we took our lunch, we went to shopping again ! We bought same shirts, shorts and even some girls make up thingy. LOL. I just can't believe that I bought myself a nail polish at face shop and a remover at SaSa. Hahaha ! After that went for shopping for clothing at Cotton On ! Took lots of photos in that shop and the toilet we went to. Hahahaha ! After that we were like leg are so sour and tired, we headed to Mos Burger to play our Monopoly deal ! Tinghui is angry with the orange that MayMay targeted it. LOL ! So damn joke and funny ~ Muahaha !
Photos will be uploading soon :D Enjoy peeps ! xD

Went for reporting today alone. I almost late because ytd slept late was smsing my candyfloss. Hahahas ! Wake up and started preparing for reporting at mcys. After reporting went back home and rest while waiting for Cassey to wake up and get prepare. While at home, was eating and using computer all the way until 1 plus. She finally wake up and started preparing, about 2.30pm went to bugis to meet her. Hahahas. Went to play pool at parklane alone with her. Finally I can get to see her face because only today she is on off day. While playing pool, she told me that her boss ask her go back to her workplace and work while another person gonna see her. Then she ask Jun Cong to accompany me -.- LOL. While waiting for him to arrive, we closed pool table and we went to 24 hours kopitiam and eat Tom Yam Ee Mee. It was delicious :D After awhile, he arrived. We left the place and Cassey heading to her workplace then me and JC going Chamber play L4D2. Hahahaha ! It was fun :D After chamber, we heading back home sweet home :))

Today went out with Rouping, Adeline, Miko & 1 unknown guy and girl.
At first met Rouping to go school collect her graduation testimony, after that we left the place and went to JP for shopping ! Shop for clothing, shoes etc. Kinda shiok if you do that, but end up going back home wallet with one big hole. Hahahas. Spent more than $80 above. Fuck. Kinda cool isn't it? Hahahahas ! Spams alot of pictures with them ! :)
Shall upload a few pictures then.